was it easy

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salamualaik~

hello world. its been ages aint it.

im waiting for nur kasih to start. i told my sis "dah start nnt panggil kakak okeyyyy!" and theres about one hr more till it starts so ive decided to update my blog. haha about time! my last entry was about final exam. which is sooo last news. hehe. i am now finished with semester five *alhamdulillah, thank You Allah for the time youve given me* and currently im on my retail pharmacy practical training for a month before the new sem starts.

"working" 8-9 hrs per day monday till saturday is a new experience for me. i will talk about it more when its done and over with.

btw, happy eid ul adha everyone~ eid of sacrifice. just how much you'd be willing to sacrifice what is yours without even questioning Him?

round around

"Jika ada sesiapa pinta cintamu, katakan ia nya utk Allah, rindumu utk Rasulullah dan kasihmu utk ibu bapa... tetapi jika dipinta keikhlasan mu, berikanlah pada yang telah menghargainya..."

selesai sudah kalam pembuka bicara, kini tiba untuk ku mengomel mengisi masa..walaupun sebenarnya takdela banyak mana, namun tetap jadi penghibur hati yang lara...

3 papers down down down already~ 3 papers more to go go go~ ive got to admit that second paper pharmacognosy was pretty badly done. HUU! and some news i got from a good friend have made it worse.. but im trying to look at it the positive way which im not sure how positive could it be and no matter how how frustrated i was, how down i felt right after i heard the news/rumour i still am trying to think positively and look forward to the next paper...people we know can be MEAN but they might have their own good reasons...only God knows~ but we'll see... Allah Maha Adil bukan?

what im going to write actually has nothing to do with the above quote. i just found it interesting to share it here. and somehow when i read it, it left me with this big massive relief to know that im not alone..a big thank you to you-know-who-you-are for the quote. i might be talking about this later on though, when time is on my side..till then, i can feel the waves that the cardiovascular system is radiating towards me, calling me to fill its demand...hehe. later blog~

p/s: ive gained a bit of weight. now weighing 47kg (before:44kg). yeay?

diagnose

there's a limit to what you can or cannot do~

i suddenly thought of this when i woke up this morning. weird huh? i googled it but cant find anyone saying it. i thought i might have read it somewhere but where? it cant just possibly popped out off my head right? hmmm. on second thought...well...it probably would...knowing myself, things sometimes came out of nowhere, inspiring myself...it usually happen early in the morning..

there, one of many secrets of my own self have been told. *secret la sangat* lol~

ANYWAY!~~~ biotech is OVER! let bygone be bygone, yeah? one paper down, i-dont-know-how-many-more paper to go lol. i think there'll be 6 more. but one thing to be certain, PHARMACOGNOSY's next! should i be ^_______^-ing or T_______T-ing ?

i went to meet prof weber the other day. we had a good chat but i wasnt expecting him to give out any hints or tips or whatnot and he indeed did not give out any. but one thing that i would like to share here is what he said to me

"the mountain is high up because you're seeing it that way, try climbing it bit by bit, enjoying every little step of it and you will eventually realise that you're already at the top of it"

but if course he said it a little differently, im just adapting it to my "own" language so it is more understandable hehe..but you get the point right? i know its soo easy to be stressfull especially at times like this, but like i have mentioned before, theres a limit to what you can or cannot do. think about it...

lets get back to basic *usaha doa tawakkal*

that thing is thingly thinging

hello world

what time is it?
time to buy a watch!

haha good old days. how i miss em. i dont know why im writing an entry. something is rushing inside of me activating this and that and voila here i am. i know, final exam is like so effing near which is like 4 more day and that is less than a week. i mean, for reall lahh... our first paper is less than a week! and i dont mean to moan or complain or nethin i just feel a little upset but not so upset for i have been given the task to do another report for a program which is actually someone else's job. and me being MYSELF, not being able to say NO to a friend asking for help, half heartedly accepted it with a thought of an egloo icecream for a treat. u just hve to know how hard it is for me to construct good malay sentences. okay let me have the last laugh before the first tear HAHA. okay now im talking rubbish. huhu, if only you know how i feel..

lets turn it all around. huh. yes baby i have faith im gonna go through this with joy! i know i can do it, you know you can do it, mardhiyah! chaiyok! aja! fighting!

blerghh. this aint working. aww you know its some sad attempts of reaching a not so permanent high sky thing.

sigh but no sigh.. i really need someone to talk to.....

that one piece

have you ever feel like being on the right track yet still feeling a little lost?

i dont know why lately ive been feeling mostly that way. just like a jigsaw puzzle, when one piece is missing, the whole thing is still incomplete even though most are already in picture..but in my case that one piece is there, already in my posession, i just have to put in the right place but somehow something is holding me back...

what if there's two of the same piece but not quite the same?

what if that one piece doesnt actually belong there?

what if....what if....

i wish theres a definite answer, no what ifs and no nothing but the truth....

**sometimes I find myself glancing at the clock wondering what you’re doing at that exact moment

half heartedly

currently listening to: body language by jesse mccartney ft t-pain ❤

hello world. here i am again typing in alphabets that make up words, sentences.

i feel like wanting to get away from reality for awhile and stay in my own little fantasy world. but realising that having my head high up in the clouds wont get me anywhere, i need to get my feet back on the ground and move along....